Monday, December 06, 2004

Thoughts Inspired by the Radio

I was listening to the radio on my way into my second job....and they were saying how the stress of holidays is unhealthy, and we need to take time away from the shopping and is time we deserve and most likely need. I spent a good portion of my weekend thinking about what we deserve, as a friend of mine made the comment that I deserve to be happy. Do I? What did I do to deserve to be happy? It is my opinion that we have a right to life - happiness is not a just dessert, but a thing that is sought after. If we do manage to find happiness, I think that is simply something we have determined to do for ourselves. It has nothing to do with what we deserve. I deserve to be dead, after some of the stupid choices I've made in life. Believe me, I have no desire to go after what I deserve. When the radio was talking about time we deserve off, I was considering this in reference to those I observe. Many people think I am a workaholic....which may be true. But when I take time off - when I sit down on my couch to watch a football game or sit down at my computer to blog, I know I have put in a full-day of work. If I deserve time off, it is because I have earned that time. Free time, at least in today's world, is a luxury, and I work hard so I can enjoy it. I often hear people saying they deserve time off, because they did a lot of holiday shopping, or simply because they "need it." That may be true, or not....but I think we need to worry more about earning our time, than taking it. If the bills need paid, that is more important than your need to catch your favorite drama or sitcom. Taking time for yourself is important - but it is just as important to make sure you have earned that time, and that you are not just reacting selfishly. Perhaps I am out to lunch on this - but when I see how people stress over stupid things, the way people demand what they "deserve," I think we don't have enough to do with our time. I don't want a culture of workaholics (and given what I see in the wings of state employment, we are in no danger of that), but a mindset of earning our time and appreciating what we do have....would that be such a bad thing?